My Movie Favorites

I’m slowly getting back into the grind of things. I have began reading again, but lately, films seemed more appealing to me as I needed a break from Murakami’s Norwegian Wood. It’s only my second Murakami, but truly, it’s not a wise book to read after one goes through a heartbreak. Go read a chapter. You’ll find out why.Also, I realized I had copies gathering molds in my DVD album. So I’m trying to watch one movie every night, before my TV-remote-control-frenzy...

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August 1

I'm currently in the middle of so many things. Whoa.At this moment, I'm in the middle of writing a post about my favorite films. Likewise, I'm also in the middle of polishing my novel's outline that's been overdue for a long time now. I'm in the middle of finishing a letter for a campaign/survey. And I'm in the middle of finishing an outline for a presentation on newsletter publishing.I'm the middle of a lot of things. But in the madness of it all, I needed to pause and say this.Thank You, Dear God. Thank You for Your gentle tap on my back.And...

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Aspirational

My writing has been suffering for some time now. And it’s sad that I have deliberately avoided it and all other literary works: no poems, no short stories, not even a decent piece of short prose. My novel suffered tremendously; as I lost the appetite to do the one thing I loved doing the most.But why, oh why?Because. I got stuck in the intricacies of a complicated thing called heartbreak, and its even more complicated sibling, which is moving on.Over Sunday’s brunch, B told me I needed to get out of my rut, to cheer up, to move on! Oh. For the...

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Wound Me Not, Hurt Me Not

Please......

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Unexpected

I didn't expect this, B.But it doesn't matter anymore, right? Those trivial, insignificant, unimportant tinges of life's cruelty. Yes, it doesn't really matter at all.For what is important is now, this moment... Not the one before, not what has transpired, but now...My life began with you, B. And it will go on with you...

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July 22

Thanks, B.Thank you, thank you, thank you. -----[This is all for the meantime. I'm at the center of two twisters that I cannot even go home to personally greet Ma a Happy Birthday. Tsk. Oh, well... I love my jo...

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My LSS Today

Hay. Ewan ko ba pero kanina umaga habang nagbibihis ako, nag-crave ako for some 'Christmasy' music. E di hanap ako sa aking collection. Hahaha.Una, Gary V. Susme, nakakapagluksa naman ang pamaskong musika ng taong yun. Ayaw ko nga.Pangalawa, Ray Coniff. Susme, biglang pakiramdam ko, 105 years old na ko. Ayaw ko nga din.Pangatlo, APO! Aba. Masaya. Nakakapagpasaya. Yey!!! Tumama din sa wakas!...

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Are You Successful?

I just got back from my PCCI training where I had a blast. I'm not yet into the usual grind of things, and I do not plan to blog until next Monday, but my morning surfing brought me this:To laugh often and much;To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;To know even one life has breathed...

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Getting By

After a spell you won't feel the acheAnd you'll forget the corner you've been living in so long. You'll breathe a sigh and see it's time to move alongJust a little stronger when the winter's gone.~ When the Winter's Gone (Song for A Stranger); Words by Jennifer War...

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Pitiful

Pardon my candor but I need to post this now, if only to mollify the throbbing ache I feel inside. I was outside when I heard this song and felt it should be mine in the meantime. While I cry, while I weep, while I mourn... I thought I would be a little okay by now, and the pain becomes unnoticeable through time. But I was wrong. Through time, the pain becomes unbearable. It's like a bright, blinding light; or a loud, deafening sound; or a sore, stinging wound.Oh, hell. I don't understand the pain of heartbreak at all. And here's the song playing...

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An Epiphany

Oh. And suddenly it's Friday again.The second Friday.For only today let me cry. For just this moment, do not stop me from crying. For just today...For tomorrow when she's gone I will not cry anymo...

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Bigti Song Numero Trés

And here's the third song from the 'Heartbreak' playlist blasting all day long in my iPod speakers: Evanescence's My Immortal. Among the songs in the growing playlist, this exquisitely lamenting and haunting song is the only one to have moved me to tears in the recent weeks. Yes, the first time I heard it after the breakup, I actually wept. Oh, who wouldn't? As Amy Lee's heart-wrenching vocals start to float in the air, I couldn't help but to own the song. To claim it as mine. To cry with the song. And feel it as it engulfs me. And in the middle...

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Drool

Remember this blog entry sometime in May? Well, my orders for leather sleeves from Chie Acosta of Creativille arrived in time, I just didn't have the chance to post any photos. The sleeves were delivered promptly, and they came wrapped in beautifully crafted paper with a wax seal. How nice. My joy was indescribable when I saw the sleeves. When I slid my Moleskine into the sleeve's holder, ah, my joy was truly complete.The sleeve was lovingly handcrafted...

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Show Off

And now here's my sweet shottie number 65 from Beijing....

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Back to Collecting

Because of the recent events in my life, I forgot about my other passion: collecting. Oh, I feel so guilty!For my truck collection, I am not guilty here because I promised not to buy any until November after my purchase from Leo Sajonas last April. I do want to keep to my strict rule of one truck a month.But for the others, I am just sooo guilty. I wasn't able to write more, or read as much. But I'm getting back to the groove. I'm reading again,...

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Awaken

The weekend went by in an instant: so fast, so swift, so quick.I had two days by myself and off the world, and I spent them with my new mistresses. Two days. Two glorious days.And suddenly, without a warning, as if waking up from a long dreamless sleep, I’m alone again, abandoned by my mistresses, bereft, desolate and forlorn. Oh.It's Monday once aga...

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Happines Is... (Part 2)

Books!!! Yay!Hala. I've loaded up on books. Some of them are from authors I have read before like Mitch Albom and Gabriel Garcia Marquez, and some from new authors I am curious about like Haruki Murakami. I plan to get some of James Patterson's new Alex Cross novels and the new ones of Patricia Cornwell with Kaye Scarpetta, but not until I get a taste of J.M. Coetzee and José Saramago first. I'm dying to have a copy of Baltasar and Blimunda...But...

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Happiness Is...

Notebooks. And pens. Lots of them.I love notebooks. And pens. Aside from books, they are among the things that can easily put the smile back on my face on dark, difficult days. I don't know why, but notebooks have been my constant companions since I was a kid.I was not even four when my dear Grandma gave me a composition notebook covered in something pink with little flowers, and a used pencil. That notebook was my first. And it taught me more than...

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Heartbreak

Yesterday I got messages from friends inquiring about my disastrous state. I also got loads of inspirational messages meant to help me deal with my current predicament. Thanks, guys. You just don’t know how good it felt to read your messages. I was moved beyond words. I feel so truly blessed to have friends like you whose care, sincerity, and understanding are unparalleled. And you know I need not name you here because this is a personal blog, not a newspaper’s ad page, and it’s better for you to remain anonymous to most of my other readers. I...

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Acquiescence

"The world is a changing place, there has to be someone who never changes."~ Christina Crawford, Mommie Dear...

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Bigti Song Numero Dos

And here's Bigti Song Number 2.I was supposed to post Diana Krall’s ‘Why Should I Care’ today, but a friend’s message sent very early this morning reminded me of this extremely emotional Michael Jackson song: She’s Out of My Life. (Though this is Josh Groban's version.) This sad and haunting ballad was composed by Tom Bahler after Karen Carpenter broke up with him.She’s Out of My Life is a short song, but its piercing meaning clearly describes the message: sadness, loss, and agony brought about by a break-up. The singer reaches out to the listener,...

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